'Children is to be seen, not to be heard'...a constant phrase that was repeated when we were growing up as a child, especially when there are friends visiting us. Fortunately, or unfortunately, it has not been very much practice in the family. A family which is dominated by women, we were very much encouraged to express our feelings and our opinion on every issues. Sibling's arguement was a common sight and whoever wins, would be very highly regarded.

We are living in a changing world...where only few things in life would remain. Our physical size, appearance, character are some of the elements that have not remained in one state. However, there is one element that would be the same in one's life...expectation from others - to be the best in everything. Made me wonder...if everyone is the best, if everyone becomes the leader, if everyone is the CEO of a multi-national company, who would then be the subordinate? Who would we be leading?
Oh well, would be time for expectation check here.

So then, when are we expected to open up to let our voice to be heard and when are we expected to hear voices that come from others. Remembering the days, when we come home from kindergarten or school, the elders would be waiting eagerly at the door to ask, 'how is your day?' We were then expected to blurt out the events of the day in their absence so that they have a piece of mind that we have not been up to mischevious stuff(in the name of concern for us). As age catches up, the infamous line, 'how was your day?' would suddenly become a threat to many...some find their tongue tightly twisted...uncertain what should be coming out from their mouth in reply to that...while others would suddenly suffer from verbal diarrhea.

The more educate we are, the more reasoning we'll have before each action to be taken. Should i do this, should i not do that? Sad to say that, when certain issues being processed, it will lose the meaning. the thoughts would not be the same and when the message is actually passed out, it would have a different impact than what it should have at the first thought. Does it mean that I would be speaking my heart out? Confession time....I do not have the guts to do so.

Brought up in an asian family (though many are still confused with which community do i belong to), consideration for other's feeling is always on the top priority. But, where has that brought us this day?? Keeping deeper feelings within, and losing out on the fellowship that might be possible in life. Which is more painful, not able to love or not able to expres your love.

Sitting beside the window everyday, looking out at the clear blue sky. Somewhere within the cloud, stood the special ones who are longing to reach...but why long for that when they are all so reach-able....is your pride that important in your life??

Pride and love would never be able to stand side-by-side...hence, what would be your choice?