Thursday, September 21, 2006

possibilities

Just as I was sharing my thoughts some moments ago, I was having another line of communication with a friend. One of the line told was 'I dont love you anymore' what a coincidence. But the question came to me, as I think of the statement that she was told. How is that possible? Really wished to be in a position or even have an interview session with this guy to find out, if he actually loved her at all? Was it that love has a different meaning in a different environment like said, 'out of sight, out of mind' If it is the latter, I would really like to acquire such kill and be spared from all the teary nights.

How can you love somone and then one day stop to love. What has gone wrong? The truth always hurts...but I guess in situation like this only the truth will set us free. You are ugly. Another person is more lovely or I am afraid to lvoe because I am under pressure. Whatever reason it may be, speak out for the sake of others so that the next person that she meets, she will be able to open up herself to be loved again.

alright, you made a mistake to start the relationship. Things was great and then you realize you wanted more in life than great life. You want a different life. Fair enough, everyone has their say. but speak out so that nobody suffers. Little do you know that when you walk out that day, you do not only cause hurt, you are also causing confusion in them. Betrayal of confidence and trust. Yea, you moved on with life, finally reachinjg your objective of a supernatural life, blast of joy though there is some sense of guilt within you but its ok. Different people, different environment covers it. but what about the person you once declared that you loved. Do you not know that he/she is not the only one suffering. The people around them. Unrelated, innocent, potential partners! Would it be fair for such judgment bestowed upon them for something that they have not committed. When you free yourself from captivity, it is nice to free others as well. Nobody is perfect.

measurements of love

When you begin to call someone, my boyfriend or my girlfriend, the next word that will most likely to come from you, would be, 'I Love You'. Or sometimes you do not even need to have a partner and when meeting a foreigner, you probably had ask, "So,how do you say I Love You in your language"

Why not use it? The other person hearing it will show a million dollar smile no matter how grumpy a person he/she is and by that, it makes us feel good. My partner is smiling and so, life is good. I am guilty of charged! I could not even count the number of times where I've declared I love you to someone before i know what it really means. It is all too late now, words that came out could never be taken back, could it?

Well, as part of the study at the University of Life, a module which nobody would be exempted, the love story! When I was in France, one of the first few words that was passed on to me was, 'L'histoire amour n'est pas facille' I used to agree with that and lived by it. How can love story be easy? Putting two person frmo two different world together under the same roof. Dont be bite on our tongue sometimes? The pain and frustration that we have when it happened. How stupid to bite on your own tongue and yet, we do that.

I love you. You are the most amazing thing in my life. I love you for eternity. Lines that were declared. One morning, wake up from sleep, perhaps from the right side or the left, and you decide that you stopped to love the person whom you've once declared that you love. But, how do you know that? Is there a termometer within you to measure that you love this person because the reading on that day is X? What are the factors that causes the reading of the 'termometer'? Try to put yourself in your partner's shoes, if you who have such termometer, are still unable to tell the factors taken in, how more can they understand. So, am i saying, it is wrong to declare your love? NO! but, i would say that it is good to love freely.

Who says that love story has to be difficult. It may seem to be difficult but it is only if you choose for it to be. It is such a simple story and for the very same reason that we are on this earth. A Love story. Great love that our creator has for us and the same kidn of love that we'll need to love others around us. Love will not die. Love needs to be nurtured. If it goes unattended, it will be weak and hardened..and possibly coma, but it will not die. It is possible to wake up one day and take its duty again, only if you allow it to. If walls are to be built aroudn yourself to avoid falling into the 'difficult love story' then, you have my deepest sympathy because you will miss out the greatest thing in life -L O V E.

I may sound as if a little guru for love or Dr Love. Dont be fooled. I am just like anyone else who has to gone and is still going through Univerity of Life and Love story is still part of the module being taken. Although many questions unanswered but I do know that love lives for eternity. It requires some vacinations and antibiotics to live on so that it would be immune to the worldly disease. The vacinatiosn available is willingless to learn, to accept, humilty and patience. No one would ever live up to your expectation if you cant meet your own's expectation. They are human afterall and you were attracted to them because of who they were at the begining. How can he/she be like your someone you knew? Do you really want them to?

Before you decide that you no longer love someone, do think again. Were you honest enough when you first declared your love. Would you be brave to go through storms(which may or may not come) to enjoy the view of sunrise and sunset, or would you be a coward to retreat the declaration or even worse, never dare to take the step of declaration. which of it is you?

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Prison

"Behave yourself or the police will come and catch you!" - Such a common threat issued to kids of my generation. Well, at least, in the part of the world where i grew up. So what if the police catches me? Will be put in prison!! Oh no..that would be the 'hell of the world'.

Well, with all thankfulness to various people who has contributed to my studies at the University of Life, I am able to see more light in many different part of life. One of them include, the prison! What so bad about this place where one does not need to submit their resume to be accept, nor to think what should be the menu for the next meal, nor, what do i do tomorrow? On contrary, menu is planned, activities or schedule all ready for you, and if behave properly and hardworking, may even earn some money without having to pay rent! Doesnt sound so bad afterall, does it?

However, with deeper thoughts, what is a prison?! It definitely does not only consist of a building or an organization to keep human kind. It actually extends from east to west and from south to north. It is everywhere!! We do not need to commit an offence to be there. Sometimes, innocence or naivity will also land us in a prison. But...how?

Mentally, emotionally!!! We set some ideal scenarios and way of life that we think we ought to live by. Hold a respectable job, living in a certain type of place, and having a faithful, truthful, fun and adventureus part or being the perfect person for your life partner. (even having one!) Such thought that we harbour itself is already putting us into a prison. How can we ever be perfect and have a perfect live in this imperfect world? How long are do we have to be confined in such prison to come to our senses!!


The most severe punishment one may get for an act would be lifetime imprisonment and many of us are carrying out one or more of this sentence. Simply by having our hearts hardened. Have you ever thought, 'I will never be able to live like that again', or you feel once while doing some activities and never find yourself doing the same activity again. Invisible bricks are laid around us to form a wall....it is as if walls are not enough like in a jail, hence, additional enhancement has to be added on.... 100% safety where no intruders are able to come in. The question would be..we are safe within the wall, but are we in the positon to move out of the 4 walls? Can we live normally and feeling light?

Prison! Whoever that come up with such idea would be a smart person...the worst torture is not by death(capital punishment..no no) It is not able to die but having to live to be reminded of their action.